When I post in my blog I re-live it, in my mind and in my body . It takes me back there & right now I feel that familiar inner turmoil the cloud of anxiety in my chest & my heart is racing. I know that in less than 3 minutes I will close the laptop & go & prepare dinner & that 'little girl' will go away. This is something that i need to do for not only her but for myself & even if it makes me uncomfortable I still embrace it. I want her to live in the light like I do now, to try to put the negative parts behind her & allow the warmth (and there was plenty of it) ..to only surround her. Just me & her walking forward holding hands & trying to get her to see she's safe now because I'm here to take care of her..I am nurturing & mothering myself & she & I both deserve it ~ I can also honestly say that she's not there yet but shes on the right path & the path that we are on is not only strong but it looks bright ☼...